This picture so accurately reflects how I'm feeling right now
Thoughts going through my head:
1) Are people really that rude?
2) Do I smell bad today?
3) I see stupid people everywhere
4) Am I just irritable because I got woken up by some weirdo who's phone has decided to call me every night at midnight for the last 4 days? (I actually think this ones a machine problem as its from their office phone and there's no way they'd be there at that time inclusive or weekends. And no, it's not someone I really want to associate with so I'd rather try to find a way to block this call than have to talk to them about it).
Hmmmm few things, starting off with the food tray caving in and me leaving my lunch in a mess on the floor whilst battling to open the door holding my bag and lunches for the rest of my colleagues. I get the door open so I can put down everything and while I look for a mop, in the 3.4seconds that this takes, tsomeone's made a complaint that they saw someone drop food and leave a mess (even people with a dead car battery stalled in the middle of the road don't get that's much attention that quickly).
So I grab the closest pile of tissues and start cleaning the mess up less they come and arrest me...meanwhile the messengers bringing the complaint to me stand around me and watch me ckan up the mess...and then tell me not to clean up the mess for they have called the cleaners..and I shouldnt get my hands dirty?????? so, lets wait to get more complaints by more well meaning busy body humans that I spend my entirety choosing to smash food everywhere...
Now people, nice of you to help?
Nobody has reported the broken door or the smashes window for a month. I've made the last 4 maintenance call requests for every broken thing needing maintenance. So...this...sucks...to have someone complain that I would actually intentionally leave a mess and walk away from it.
Times like this really test my patience with humanity.
I get it, whoever complained was a good upstanding civilian doing their bit for the world.
I get it, it's nice to know that of ever you needed urgent medical attention, the fastest way to get the troops running is to drop food everywhere (at least in my building).
I get it, it's a little thing and I shouldn't get irritated but...I am. When you do your hardest to be an upstanding citizen and socially responsible, these sort of events really make you wonder why you bother trying.
So, of course, in my ongoing attempt at continuing self improvement...I seek help from the Internet.
Good old wiki to the rescue: http://www.wikihow.com/Be-Less-Annoyed-With-People
But reading through the multiple websites, one got me thinking about attempting little bursts of kindness. Focus is on the "little" especially when I don't feel so inclined at the moment to doing anything nice for anyone (everyone's evil right now)...
Kinda like the slow, self-help process towards any good change or habit...small...manageable chunks..focus on small immediate gains and hopefully I find my faith in human kindness again.
This week's menu looks to be lots of gym to vent my irritable-ness (new word I just made up), and focus on one nice thing to one people a day to start with.
I'm going to throw in meditation and positive affirmations too as the way I'm feeling, it's going to take some added ammunition.
Credit to all the people who were kind and nice to me today...sorry for my human nature to only focus on the ugly and meaner.
Wonder how I'll go....